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Migraine Monday

Okay Readers Looks like today is another Migraine Monday!

That’s a thing right?? If not, I guess we can make it a thing. I’ve made it a thing. Because for me, its migraine Monday, and Tuesday, and Wednesday, and Thursday, and Friday, and Saturday, and Sunday.

So, a few posts back I promised a book review on The Migraine Miracle by Josh Turknett (Migraine Miracle.) I was thinking of doing a proper book review but I’m in too much pain for that… so here goes

  1. It’s called The Migraine Miracle A sugar-free, Gluten-free, Ancestral Diet to Reduce Inflammation and Relieve Your Headaches for Good… Keep that in mind
  2. The cover is kind of boring. Its green and white
  3. At first reading it – I’m kind of into it because he calls migraines beasts… which I’m into
  4. There is a lot of gloom and doom about how migraine sucks, and different patient stories
  5. After reading about 99 pages (actually exactly 118 pages) I realized that I didn’t need to read the book. The author spends 118 pages discussing migraine, and then you find his miracle cure…. Which is A sugar-free, Gluten-free, Ancestral Diet to Reduce Inflammation and Relieve Your Headaches for Good
  6. Did that sound familiar… it should. It was in the title of the book
  7. Then I got angry… I don’t have all the time in the world to read that his migraine cure is a diet.
  8. I threw the book
  9. It knocked some bottles off my dresser
  10. I still haven’t picked it back up. It’s still on my floor

So that was my book review. I hope you enjoyed.

I also promised a look at my workspace. But my work space is really just my laptop on my bed – because lets be honest, I don’t really leave my bed all that often, and no one needs to see a picture of my bed (you can actually see part of it in some pictures I’ve posted of Patches – my stuffed bear.)

I also said I’d show my migraine toolkit. But its half empty right now, so I’ll save that for another day.

I had a really shitty week. I guess all my weeks are shitty, but they are getting particularly shitty. I guess I wrote on Thursday about being Angry, so you know all that nonsense.

Friday, once again – I had a migraine. I ate, I yogaed, I meditated, I exercised, all while crying in pain by the way. And nothing helped. Then I had a really gross dinner. Apparently along with migraines I have high cholesterol, so instead of making pasta sauce with ground beef, I decided to try ground chicken. It was a bad plan. Chicken doesn’t make the same small chunks as ground beef, and it was just a bad texture and bad everything.

Saturday – wake up – migraine! YAY!!! So I went to work for a half hour (I sit with a boy while he practices piano. Correct his mistakes, that kind of thing. I’m not his teacher, I just sit with him while he practices) you know what is GREAT? When you have a migraine, and you have to listen to piano.

I don’t even remember the rest of what I did Saturday. I know I was in pain. I know it was becoming painfully obvious that I hadn’t showered since Wednesday morning and my hair was getting disgusting. But the pain just kind of blocks out everything else. Saturday could be the day that I decided to try Voltaren on my migraine. It didn’t work.

Then we get to Sunday. At this point my migraine hurts so much, that my entire head is sore and feels bruised. I wake up, and go to work for half an hour (again, to listen to a boy practice piano) On my way home I decide to pick up some bagels for brunch with my partner. I then forget that I decided to do that and drive home. As I was pulling into the driveway, I remembered, turned around and went to the bakery to buy bagels. I also parked like a dick. I got out of the car, noticed I was in 3 spaces, said out loud “wow I parked like a dick” and then continued on my way to the bakery, I had no caring. I then went home and my partner and I had bagels/lox/tuna for brunch, and I left him to watch football, and he left me to go upstairs and cry like a baby because my head hurt.

I find that my migraines get pressure-ey. Like there is a giant build up of pressure in my head, and if I just drilled a hole in the side of my head/my temple, and relieved the pressure, everything would be fine. But apparently that isn’t a thing that happens.

Today I have to leave my house and deal with unknowns. That’s where I don’t know how I’m going to react migraine wise. I have to go grocery shopping, and the grocery store sucks. I have to take my partners car for an oil change and to have his tires changed, and I don’t know how I’ll react there. I have to go to the drycleaners, which will be fast, but suck. I also have to go to the health food store and see if they have chemical free/scent free shampoo. The mother of one of the kids I tutor is a doctor who deals with illnesses that stem from toxins, and shes told me to make sure there are no chemicals of any kind in my house or on my body. So I’ve decided to start one step at a time, and find a new shampoo/conditioner.   Because my dream is that I try new shampoo and conditioner and my migraines just go away.

I did shower today… which is good. It hasn’t been a week since my last shower so I guess that’s a win. And I’m doing some laundry. I try to do something productive every day, and some days that’s just the laundry and a shower. Today it’ll be a laundry, shower, shopping, tire/oil change, dry cleaners, and I work for an hour and a half today. 30 min of listening to a kid practice piano, and an hour of tutoring.

Anyways, I’m having extreme anxiety about leaving my house with a migraine… as I type this my hands are shaking. It has actually been quite difficult to type up this post. And I’m not really sure what this post is about. I guess just my life with my migraine, and nothing really. Sorry if you got all the way to the end and were disappointed. To make up for it, I’ll make the picture another one of my bear.. this time trying to play a BINGO card.

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Why “Journey Back to Normal”

The Meaning Behind my Blog Name, I was also going to use this AMAZING photo as my “featured image” for this post… but I couldn’t find any picture of me really on a journey, so I was going to take one of my sisters (she is currently chaperoning a chef school trip in Peru) as we look enough alike – but thats just lying.  So instead, Here is a picture of a moose, clearly on a journey of some kind

As I discussed yesterday – I’ve apparently been blogging wrong, so I am now following a “your first 30 days” of blogging guide that I found on Pinterest (should I post a link? I never know what the copy write/sharing laws are for the internet and blogs and pinterest) so today, the meaning behind my blogs name.

As you can see, my blogs name is “Journey Back to Normal” although I’ve since thought I should change it to something like “finding my new normal” as I am not sure I will ever be what I was before migraines took over my life.

As I’ve mentioned in previous posts – I used to be a star, at least I was the star of my life. I went out with friends all the time, I had multiple jobs, I played in different orchestras, I danced, I was a classroom music teacher, I was close(ish) with my family, and I had a wonderful relationship and I was happy almost all the time.

Then the migraines started.

Now they are the star of my life.

I rarely go out anymore and often have to leave early/suffer in pain when I do, even though I know they would hang out and do something quiet with me if I asked, I feel as though I’ve lost most of my friends because of this.

I hardly work these days – I tutor a few students, I hopefully just landed a supply teaching gig at a private school nearby, I also went back to school to become a paralegal, so that I could hopefully find a job working in a quiet(ish) setting in my own office.

I no longer make music (for me that’s a big blow) but I’ve found that the physical pressure from playing the oboe just caused me more pain, and while there are other things I have done/tried, I often get politely “asked to leave” because I don’t show the same commitment as the rest of the choir (sorry, I was recently asked to leave my shul’s choir because of my lack of commitment… because missing a few rehearsals due to extreme pain is showing a lack of commitment… I’m still bitter)

I used to dance around my house, dance with friends, play “Just Dance” and now – moving hurts.

My family, while wonderful, and my boyfriend, while amazing, have had to make so many sacrifices for me because of my migraines. They have had to stay up with me at the hospital, fill prescriptions late at night, listen to my crying and complaining, my sisters both have beautiful children, and I feel like they can’t rely on me to babysit (which I should see as a good thing – but I don’t) and my boyfriend doesn’t get to go out with me anymore. A few days a week he goes out with other friends and people, but I find I often can’t make dinner, or make it downstairs, forget about a date.

My Migraines had completely taken over my life. They caused me to have anxiety (How can I make plans/take a job/do anything if I could get a migraine, and then the worrying would cause a migraine, which would then cause more worrying, and you see where I am going with this) and the anxiety caused me to isolate myself from my friends, family, and the world… and I recently decided no more.

My Migraines may have taken over the last 10-11 years of my life, but now, I’m taking them back. I will try anything and everything to get my life back. To be able to join an orchestra, or dance around my house while I clean, to see my friends and babysit my nieces and nephews.

I will follow my doctors plan to the letter, and if that doesn’t work (because its been 8 years of me following my neurologist to the letter) maybe that will mean its time to find a new neurologist. I will finally read all the migraine books I’ve bought and see what they say. I will keep a detailed log of my migraines, how they progress, what possibly triggered them and what made them better so I know what to do in the future.

I apologize about my rant “Journey back to normal” Its me. Taking my life back from my migraines, and bringing you all along for the ride.

 

Along with the moose, I’ve decided to share with you some of my own Journeys that I hope to be able to take again.

My sister and I at Canada’s Wonderland,IMG_0436

My other sister and I getting ready to do a 5K walk to raise money for Multiple Myeloma,IMG_0112

and Me – Doing the edge walk at the CN Tower.  All three things I had to miss this year because of migraines (although the edge walk was also due to funds)

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In other news – last night I FINALLY started to feel better. I don’t know if it was the Celfay, the lavender, the peppermint, the heat, the cool, the constant eating or the changing or my medication (I used to take 1200mg of gabapentin around dinner time, now I take 300mg 4x a day… and 200mg of Celebrex 2x a day (at least for the next few days)) but it was great. Mitch and I ate dinner together (I ate gluten… possible reason why I feel the way I do today… guess I should add it to my migraine tracker) and we watched like 10 episodes of some Netflix show (Big Mouth… if you are into dirty humor I highly recommend it. At the same time, as a teacher – part of me thinks that all students should watch this show when learning about puberty, its probably much more effective to watch the “hormone monster” make someone do something, than listen to their teachers talk about hormones.

We had a great time last night. Then we went to bed.

This morning I woke up with a migraine. I ate some protein right away and took my meds. I am now only allowed to take my triptan 2x a week, and I’ve used that up, so I couldn’t take that. I went downstairs and made myself eggs (more protein) and had a coffee (sometimes caffeine helps) and drank a bunch of water (dehydration à possible migraine trigger) but still nothing. So I went and I took an Epsom Salt bath, with Eucalyptus, then after that I put a Koool Patches on my head and lavender essential oils on my temples, behind my ears and neck and on my wrists and started to write this post. Which has apparently become a novel.

I also finally started reading one of the Migraine books I’ve bought (after reading yesterdays post, my boyfriend told me I wasn’t allowed to buy anymore migraine books unless I was going to read them) “The Migraine Miracle” by Josh Turknett, MD When I finish it I think I will write a review and make a “book review” section of my blog. Maybe even a “here’s me following so-and-so’s plan” section. So far I’m a fan of the book. But mostly because he calls a migraine “The Beast” and the cover is green.

Anyways, I’m off for now – going to continue reading my book and see what else might help my migraine… It most certainly will not be me going to see Bat out of Hell the meatloaf musical with my boyfriend and his parents tonight. But that is what I will be doing

Tomorrows episode of my blog will apparently be about “my earliest memory” which if I recall correctly, will have most of you wondering why I wasn’t in therapy before suffering with anxiety.